Hi. So here i am again. Blogging. Well, i was blog-surfing while in school having lessons (oops!) and yeah, the rest is history not 12 hours ago. I dunno how long will i keep up with this blog seriously speaking. But, I'm just going with the feel right now.
Haha.
Okay, so this is my 3rd blog. The previous ones i had deleted because i kind of hate the things in there. It just irritates me and i feel all
emo now thinking about it. I dunno. There were beautiful memories in there but there lingered a kind of sadness too whenever I backtracked. Maybe it's the feeling of things past and gone, never returning. Maybe it's the facade of false joy
I've built up, assuring the people around me and myself. But
I've never been happy really. I couldn't let go of the hurts and wrongs.
So there goes my ancient blogs.
Haha. It really do feel so long ago. This blog, I guess, symbolise a new beginning. To release the past into virtual black hole. I dun dare hope that I've forgiven myself and everyone. I dun dare hope that i
truly love myself and embrace all of
I've got in me. But
I'm really gonna thank God for every single breath I take, every single moment. Life might seems too harsh and God might seem so far away. Everything might feel like it's against me but i dare to believe i will tide over it. I dare to believe i can survive through obstacles for
after all, God brought me so far. It has been 17 years, nearly 18 (dun despise my youth), and many times I feel that it is the end and
I'm never gonna make it. But
look now! Here i stand still, whole and I hope, more beautiful. Hey! I
definitely move from glory to glory, if you've seen those
erm, old photos.
And yes, Daddy God is with me throughout the seasons and what's to come. Hold on! Press in!
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