Yup. It's not about you, me, them or anybody anymore. It's about us.

And perhaps a little more trust?

Stop all the complains, all the pity-partying, all the oh-i'm-so-sad-and-useless thing.
Cause all of us don't need it.
We need togetherness and will.
Get up, stand and continue everytime you stumble or fall.

Labels: determine

I saw your indignance when respect was not given to the leading one,
and you asked them to mind their attitude.
But a few days ago, I saw you shouting at the one you defended,
stabbing your fingers rudely and refusing to do your task.
Where is that respect and attitude you talked about?

I saw your anger when a few was pulled out to do extras
and you said this is called a team?
But not long ago, you stood up and walked away,
from the team you asked to stick together
and disregarding the one who brought us to a higher level.
What is the teamwork you're talking about?

You said we only think for ourselves,
but did you think for the rest of people, and think about the one speaking?
Aren't you thinking of yourself, about the one that you love, which is still yourself too?
All your reasonings, your logic, your benefits for the team, and the right things to do while you're sitting there nursing your injury.
It's hypocritical for you to say those cos we ain't complaining.
Aren't they just your excuses?

Labels: disappointed

Pastor Tan said: You must learn to forgive before you can learn to love!
-> nobody deserve forgiveness!!

WAIT WAIT!! I'm not done yet!

-> forgiveness is not deserved, it's grace and a right thing to do!

I really like that. It's such beautiful qoute and so true. We're unworthy of God's forgiveness, and Jesus dying on the cross for all and about everything we have. Yet, I learnt too that unworthyness is not the same as worthlessness. We worth so much to God, we're of so much value to Him, Jesus came to die on the cross for all. We ain't worthless to Him. But we don't deserve it, unworthy of it. Hmmm, do I make sense? There's a difference there ya..

Yup, and I shall have confidence in myself. I don't care what people say or are doing, trying to show me who's the better one. I shan't worry. I have faith and confidence, an assurance from God, my X-factor! ^^

Labels: determine, God, motivated

The bible says serve the people, minster to them. Yes, but not when the people stop doing anything and throw all THEIR responsibilities to others. Just disgressing. Blah.

Labels: moody, random

I am so going to collect my sony ericsson phone back today. Those late night talks with my head tilt at an awkard angle, clipping the old phone between my ears and the pillow. There's no earphones nor loudspeakers and it's fishing uncomfortable. I think the radiation emitting from the phone has prolly given me a tumor the size of a fist.
Anyway, my new year resolution has it's first setback. I haven't study for ANY UTs. And there's one later today.
They gonna tumble today and I wanna continue my cartwheel :(

Labels: cheer, random

Nincampoopkakak!

And that would be the last.

I don't put those faces up there just because they are my friends. It's just so. Fit in. I've tried to put in more. I really do. But there's no appreciation but subtle hints of thoughts of biasness and unhappiness over something trivial.

I feel real misunderstood right now.

But then I'm gonna tell myself,

Jesus got it more than me, so I shan't complain.

Ya, My new motto and inspiration for the year. Hiak Hiak.

Labels: determine, rants

It's quite sad and yet infuriating to see and hear about those stuffs. Just feel like quitting and leave them in a mess. Perhaps we are not doing that great a job and yeah, you think you can do better. Nothing wrong with that. But like wth? You show your attitude and pissed half the people off, spoil the entire mood blahblah...how do you expect us to want to do anything when you are not listening and going about your own way and leading others along with you? It's like whatever..forget it, just give up. It's a torture seriously. So you don't like this and that and you complain about it, but you are contributing to it too. There's no respect and no willingness. Drag your feet, walk slowly, grumble, mumble to yourself and give a sian half look. So don't complain you feel slack or there's no motivation because you not helping. Why can't people stop blaming others and wanting to change others? Why don't YOU CHANGE YOURSELF first?

Labels: disappointed, rants

Poly life has warped my sense of time with its weird timetable. Its 2008 (yes, I'm slow) and it feels like 2007 still. All my new year resolutions and goals are not set yet. And since I mentioned it, I better set it now.

Top few in the list:
1) Focus on my studies. My recent UTs are all like SH*T! I shan't mention it here. Total disgrace and I'm so sad already. Argh!
2) Check my emotions :)
3) Spend more time at home and with April. She's much better now though I'm still worried. Hmph.
4) Manage my time between cheerleading, studies and personal life. Gotta set the bounderies.

Okay, and now that school has reopen (today's the first day of school), I guessed I'll be blogging more often- which is not right! I'm suppose to focus on my studies! So what the hell and I'm doing here right? Ciao.

Labels: random

What would you have me do that would please you?
What would you have me say that would make things right?
For all that I've done, nothing seems to work.
I always try my best; I do the housework, I study hard.
I behave myself, I never ask more anything much.
But yet it's always me, me, me that gets it all.
Everything is wrong, no question asked.
I see the rest sitting on couches in front of the TV,
I always see the one infront of the computer in a smelly room.
And I'm always the one tidying yet I'm getting screamed at.
CLEAN THE ROOMS!
WHY IS THERE STILL DUST?
YOU DIDN'T DO THIS YOU DIDN'T DO THAT!
What about them?
Why is it me again?
How much more do you want?
What a way to start a new year.
With April suspected of spinal/bladder/kidney problems.
Sigh.

Labels: rants