I should say I have problem forgiving and forgetting. It's hard. I can't enjoy myself fully and talk openly. Pastor once said, a friendship is broken once the trust is gone. Trust takes so long to build up but can be severed with a word or action. People are not perfect. They hurt you and disappoint, and they don't understand you fully. But God says to keep your trust and faith in Him, for He does not lie and He's a good God. I learnt to lift up my burdens and cried out to Him. When you're really just sad, tell God, 'I'm just sad'. His presence was overwhelming. His love overcomes all else.

Had real bad gastritis yesterday and still having random sharp pains. I was shivering and feverish. I just feel like throwing my laptop down, and sit on the pavement. Thank God I didn't roll down the overhead bridge. Haha, thinking back, people probably see a pair of chopsticks swaying to and fro in the dark. And then.........reaching home...I went straight to bed without BATHING! Muahaha. I confess, sometimes I got rather lazy to bathe at night. Like how I'm feeling right now. Haha.

To you, I shall only say, you are unique. You can't really be me. And I, you.

This is my life.

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