Gosh, I was late for
FYP meeting again. Not good. Later evaluation all shoot me. Anyway
Im feeling so hungry now......
So Iggy stayed over yesterday and I so don't feel like getting up this morning.. It was raining and squeezing with April, her warm weight is so cuddly. Sigh....such a air of peace and love.... I just felt at peace. At love, especially Iggy, because after all, he has to be the only one that I turn to at the end of the day, with whatever feelings in his arms. I dunno how to say it, but it's really really, no matter what happens, you know there's someone who really really loves you. =) I just know that there's people loving me and God loving me.
Perhaps, after so long, it's really time to put down and let go, bit by bit. Maybe it's really because of the time I've spent, putting almost all I have for it, that made it so hard. So many decisions and
commitments and opportunities that changed, altered or given up for this passion.
The decision to leave Usher, all my friends, Roy, Christina, Lawrence etc., those people who help me plant my feet in church. They are almost like my
cellgroup. I love usher and yet I love this passion too. I was so so lost and I was rising up, working with the chief usher, so part of the move in the ministry. It demands so much of my time too. It was really hard to make a choice, give it up, to stop. I dun know how much others know, but I know how much my passion caused me, so many things apart from that..
So now comes the time yet again, when you feel that tug into another part of your life. Like so many times in the past, when I feel that tug but pushed it off. It's really hard to stop being an integral part. But it's time to shift my focus and relent to the tug. It's been 3 good years. =) God! Here I am! Here I come!!!! Here we go!!!
Weee...
Labels: adjusting, God, love-d, world peace