Saturday, May 26, 2007
Yeahness.. Look at my
orh chey! I'm so proud of my bruises. Okay, actually it's freaking disgusting. But I like =D
Haha alright, I'm a sicko. This is crap.
Night!
Labels: cheer, EmergeConf.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
A rash promise,
sincerity's missed.
A day dissolved,
with feelings gone.
The sky turned bleak,
like mood was tweak.
Intense emotions,
at any motions.
Expectations we have,
hurts we beget.
Instinct's to hide,
but holding tight.
A love so deep,
I fear of trips.
But it's hard to stop,
though all the pain tops.
After so long,
it's all about loving you.
No matter what,
Still and more..
Labels: disappointed
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Argh! Aching real badly. Ugly brusies all over. Countdown: 8 more days to Emerge and POS. There's still alot to be done. Coming Friday preview, 100% up. 2 days. Shucks.
Oh, and I got an A for my 1st UT, Creative Concept. PTL! Woohoo...Yeahness. I'm elated :) Din't expect it like, totally. Hoho.
It's been along while since I wrote something proper here. Getting random. And superfical. But I dunno what else to blog down. My mind's in a blank, a whirlwind of thoughts, giddy with whatever emotions. Drunk, totally :) Next time.
God, please multiply my time and let not the minutes go by unfruitful. It's the last lap. Go!
p.s I want Ben & Jerry! Chunky Monkey.
Labels: cheer, EmergeConf.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Alright, I dun really like this
pink layout. It's too...strawberry shortcake, icings, creams and puffs..too princess-y. Haha. I prefer being queen. =) I guess it's a bit revolting. Arh, it will be just some photoshop and change of colour codings. Too lazy.
p.s someone said I look korean today. An actress at that too. Haha. Maybe she meant Da Chang-Jin.
p.p.s Too lazy. Really lazy. I just changed the background that's all. It's much better I guess. Better than everything pink. Less strain on the eyes. Yellow and Pink! Strawberry shortcake! Fine, it's still too cute.
Labels: random
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Blessed are those who are merciful..
And I stand forgiven in your throne..
Wow...Labels: God
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Someone ought to kill me. I know! It's all PINK! My brother always claims I'm a bimbo. Am I really? I do use my brains. My favourite colour is not pink(seriously), though I love pretty things. Stop treating me like a barbie!
And you're being extremely unhelpful. Like wth? I'm doing everything, arranging everything, racking my brains for solutions and you did not even lift a finger! Just adding on to my fustrations, you ERF#@*^&*$^)! I'm so pissed off. FINE! I do it all! You sit back and relax and enjoy what I need to accomplish by tomorrow morn. Provided I did not tear my hair out and decides to disappear (which sadly I cant).
>=(
Argh to everything.
Labels: random
Friday, May 18, 2007
What a week. =)
Sermon of the Mount going strong. Pastor laying hands every session,
wooah! Me, me,me!!
POS going strong too but it's a race against time. The stunts are BIG.
I can't wait for Emerge (
woohoo!) and yet what a relief it would be when it's over.
I smoked through my
UTs. But it was
hilarious, really, thinking about it.
I can donate 2packets of blood and counting. Man~ I thought there was some internal injury or
smth. I nearly died (of shock and pain).
Immobilize in bed the whole day
ytd and grew some painful pimples.
I wonder whether I'm just a pretty face to them.
Surprise! It's a
pleasant one. And I wish I can too not hide.
Tomorrow History of the Arts. I love that class. =)
Night night!
Labels: God, random
Saturday, May 12, 2007
Yesterday's cell was
'wooosh..' But something's missing. And it's within me. Sigh.. God?
Ben & Jerry's Chocolate dough. I'm gorging myself in this.
Lord I'll give my life
A living sacrifice I place at Your feet
Break me.
Labels: E269, God
Friday, May 11, 2007
Okay, I need to rant it out. I'm so so so so so pisssssssed! Erf! I'm now at home, lying on my bed with the lappie on my lap typing all this. So why ain't I in school? I waited for the bus from 7.15 to 8am! I waited and watched 4 buses sped passed the stops because it's too packed for anymore people to board. I was so pissed I went home then. My, what an attitdue right? Haha. When I finally decided to trust 168 again, and they disappointed me. Argh! What crappy talk about increased frequency to cater to us. The buses came at intervals of 5 to 1o minutes! It's even even even worse than last year! Splitting year 1s and the 2s&3s made no difference then. >=(
Anyway, today's module is Art
criticism and analysis. I dun mind missing that. It's
uber boring and all I do is analysis and criticise an art.
I dunno whether is it the Tom Yam seaweed. But it's stabbing me real bad. Oh! I had a vivid nightmare this morning. It's so real I dunno whether is it real or not. (Am I making sense?) Terrorize by spirits. I wasn't really afraid though my heart was like pumping real fast and I stay awake throughout after that.
I survived yesterday's training
btw! It was tough. 3 sets of
scissors jumps like
omg already. Strangly I'm not aching that badly though. But I promised I really did it right and I'm not eating
cockroaches!
Labels: moody, rants
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
The longer I stay, the more tired I get.
I dun really know what I want. Maybe it was selfish of me.
But I sometimes doubt in my heart about this whole thing.
I can't help wish that you could just read my mind.
How do I tell you how difficult it is for me,
to say the things in my heart and mind.
I'm not who ppl think I am.
I'm quite a kid.
It's stay or go.
Do you accept all this?
Labels: feeling down, tired
I thought it's pretty cool.
The Individualist. The introspective, romantic type. are self-aware, sensitive, and reserved. They are emotionally honest, creative, and personal, but can also be moody and self-conscious. Withholding themselves from others due to feeling vulnerable and defective, they can also feel disdainful and exempt from ordinary ways of living. They typically have problems with melancholy, self-indulgence, and self-pity. At their Best: inspired and highly creative, they are able to renew themselves and transform their experiences.
http://www.theinternettherapist.com
Labels: random
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Today's problem is freaking hard!! My brain's toasted! The first 2 weeks is a
flux I see, Digital Media Arts.
Later there's
POS training again. I'm so...bored off my shorts just thinking about it. I'm bored enough as it is already anyway. I'm feeling all weird. Things I once thought I like I'm not really sure now. All of a sudden I just wanna break away from everything and just be a spectator, to not worry about anything and just soak in His
presence.
No conflicts, no raised voice, peace and quiet, amiable and fairness. Let me see some
niceties today please.
Headache headache! x.x
Labels: EmergeConf.
Monday, May 07, 2007
- I'm so pissed off with my lappie. So many problems. Boo =(
- I letting my emotions take the better of me.
- So many things cascading down one after another just burst the dam.
- And I guess it's all about the attitude truely.
- I got to make a decision fast.
- I can't help worrying about the future.
- I feel rather ill at ease keeping things hidden.
- Many what ifs.
- I'm really really tired.
- I need some time to myself.
- I want some quiet peaceful moments.
- I'm sick and tired of many things.
- I really cant be bothered nowsadays.
- My temper is getting bad these days.
- I'm typing things in random, just as it came across my mind.
Labels: moody, rants
Friday, May 04, 2007
I saw some really ugly attitudes today. Thinking about it just made me all huffy. Like
wth? Towards a sister whats more. Where's that manhood, dun even say Christ-like attitude man?
Argh!
Whatever... Seriously I can't be bothered anymore. I do what I'll like, I'll live for God and myself and my =). I train hard, do my ultimate and don't come near me within a 10-foot pole, thank you v much. Just so so so turned off today. 'Wannabes', I see..birds of the same feathers flock together. No wonder, I understand. I'm feeling so vindictive. Rah! You say us, we say heck! Look who's talking purleaseeeee...boo! >=(
Sai says: Losers!
Hahaha. Darth
Vader? We rock! I love STA! =)
Labels: rants
Thursday, May 03, 2007
Mental blockage; blank and bleak.
My mind's replaying.
Can't seems to rid of it.
It rather terrifies me.
I just want you to hold me tight
and assure me this is forever.
Labels: confused
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
I ate many donuts. Donuts for supper, donuts for breakfast, donuts for lunch and donuts whenever I'm itching for food!
Donuts!! My, they are tempting. From Donut Factory. =)
I'm so happy. Went shopping hurhur. My shopping list is a great deal shorter but nevertheless, I still have many things to buy. Haha. Ciao~
Labels: happy, random