Friday, November 30, 2007
I'm so hungry. Craving for
bean curd. Milk tea.
Argh! *smacks lips*
Today's the start of Nationals training. And so began this 3 months ++ journey. I thank God that my
cell group shifted to Friday for now. Quite a
dilemma it was, thinking about it. Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday. And as time goes by, it will increase. But let's take things step by step for now.
Got my new phone too. A W580i instead. Well, look and function like a S500i but except it's white and orange and got the
Walkman function. Better =)
Labels: cheer, random
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
More photos but not all. My darlings would know what's missing, though I have never say it. Those people who think all that they did to hurt me and ruin my life is for my own good. Arh wells... bull dog + shih tzu = ?? Ya.
Our picnic
Guess who's the feminine one?
YOOOoHHH!!!!
Our Chopstick legs.
One-handed Dine!
Roundoff.
This fake roundoff lol.
Adrain's the photographer, Iggy's the da zha one haha!
I feel like a child, a happy child.
Squeeze and cuddle!
Such a nice scene for them to kiss lol.
The end! My loves
Labels: moody
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Sentosa was fun. And yes, we are all RED, and if we stay any longer in the strong sun today, we would turn cooked. We took many many photos but I'm rather tired after this long day, so another time. Need to compile with Richelle and Dine side of photos too anyway.
More to come..and next stop, shopping for sun dresses! Gosh, $$$ money $$$ please. Gotta find a job that fit into my tight schedule. I'm gonna endure and I promise I won't skip school (okay, I'm so gonna break it then).
P.S April got a new bed. A pink one this time! With Mickey Mouses. Ho Ho.
Labels: April Baby, happy
Thursday, November 22, 2007
I lost some strands of hair and weight. I'm currently standing at a mere 36.3 kg. Now, that is severely, severely underweight. I feel like I'm probably gliding instead of walking, floating instead of flying. I feel so empty!! Argh!! Dun stop me from ranting okay. Dun tell me I should be glad I need not bother about what I put in my mouth or my weight because NO! I worry about my weight too, if for the opposite reason, and I have to think about what I put in my mouth because for all I know, all the food is getting stuck in my veins and clotting my blood. I'm a threat to South Africa because all the food seems to go nowhere. Bah!
Okay, I've been d/l-ing songs from multiply ho ho. Many songs ;p
And I'm quite in a dilemma right now. Pray, I dun ask for the best in both worlds but I ask for this now- that I don't have to choose and there will be no need to, and I can continue. Sigh. God will make a way :) Chill.
A testament of our love, esp Ad and Ig's love. lol
Iggy's desperate and Ad grant him a kiss! lol
Let's end off with the Muffins for Midnight, 98.7 FM- You are so fat that when I took your picture last year, I'm still printing it! LOL!
Labels: random, rants
Monday, November 19, 2007
So many things..
But I'm glad that things are picking up.
And I'm having so much fun.
Richelle and Joline are greatest.
Adrian and Iggy holding hands!
And I love Geraldine girl :)
Ho ho, and I have 182 pictures to edit. And I'm halfway done. Weather's getting bad and as this season of the year, I'm getting the sicknesses. Headaches bugging me. Down with fever and flu at the moment. And I feel like I have
rheumatism. All my bones!
I love to draw now. Draw out my feelings. And I better start finding ways to increase my pocket money.
BF's such a toil on me. But I'm proud of myself! Good job Jo!
Labels: happy, sick
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Hatred.
Strong enough to hurt.
Myself.
Can't you see?
Dun you care?
Can't you hear
My silent cry?
Would you rather not believe
that I'm in such pain?
That all your sense and good advice
must be in vain?
Would you rather tell yourself
that I'll be OK?
And all this adolescent angst
will go away?
Labels: confused, disappointed
Monday, November 12, 2007
Sigh....school's reopening tomorrow. And I didn't manage to get a new handphone. In actual fact, my phone line will expire on 26 November to be exact. Mummy mixed up. But never mind. To look on the bright side, new stocks may have come in by that time (all the blacks are not in stock). And btw, it's the dummy model for the yellow phone that is really ugly. I've seen the real one and it looks much better. Closer to the picture, golden yellow. But still if there's black I'll get black. Yeah, and other than that, aside for the longer wait for a new phone, all still good praise the Lord. I'm still happy. And I feel so love. Yup, mummy loves me. Daddy loves me. Brothers love me and.....Yup yup.
I better set my alarm for school. Pack my bags. Prepare honey stars. Tomorrow's drawing lesson. So water colour pencils, pencils kit, eraser, glue, blah and blah.........Can't wait to get hug.
Labels: happy, love-d
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Hoho! i just finished my PP. A whopping 2591 words. Hail Mr. Edward (my advisor). You can slowly read.
Grrr..you should have seen his critical comments, enough to make little girls cry. But enough to make me wanna bombard him with NC16 threatening emails. Nah, of course I didn't send. Just using my overactive imagination to visualize. For now, I shall enjoy the remaining last 2 days of holidays =( Not to say it's unfruitful.
Hee. Happy times and shopping and many new stuffs. And I'm still able to pay my tithe and first week of BF!
Woohoo. Plus my new coming phone and more stuffs to buy this Sunday, mummy promises.
Lalalala....
Sorry, sounds irritating eh, I know.Labels: random
Thursday, November 08, 2007
Wohoo! my mummy said my m1 line has reached 22 months- in other words, I can get a new phone! Hahaha. I'm so blessed, even before I pay my first fruit for BF. Hoho! ^^ So much the better, my current phone is going bonk. I've been eyeing this phone, the Sony Ericisson s500i:
I think it's so gorgeous! I don't know which colour to chose. Both seems nice, the green is pretty and yet, the yellow is so happy. I'm so lost for choice. Any opinions??
Labels: happy
I don't know how crazy can I get.
I wonder am I really right in the head.
Stumbling home in the dark,
stomping hard on a foot with purpose,
I don't know is it the joy of pain or the attention I seek.
Shivering under cold water, I stood
for the longest time before I awoke.
I saw Dove for calming nights,
and thought I need a calm night indeed.
But calm night not for me tonight.
Weird thoughts and dreams in my head,
reality and dreams seems to merge.
Wild, harsh sobs that's not from me seemingly.
I thought I was dying, so feverish and cold,
dragging deep painful breaths into constricted lungs.
I stay awake for hours
afraid of closing my eyes,
in case my body stops fighting to breathe once I sleep.
I called and called and cried and cried,
desperately needing someone to hear me.
But all I manage was gasps.
How lonely and frightening the night was.
There was no one.
No one.
Labels: feeling down
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
I had an RJ question (I know it's the sch holidays larh!) that asked about my dreams. Hmm, I guess very little people know about my ambitions. I find it's rather well-hidden. Well, so anyway I wrote:
When I was young I dreamt of being an accomplished musician who can play many instruments. And I dreamt of being a teacher, naturing young students. I also dreamt of being an air stewardess, the pride of Singapore.
Now, I had a whole load more of dreams. I thought that I might want to be a show host, or a DJ. Or I could be a designer in the fashion or media sector. I also want to be a part of the TV crew, doing production works, filming etc. I even thought of opening my own pet shop.
The past few weeks, I had been thinking about the future. I formed a plan in my mind and this is what I had been thinking. I thought I could be an air stewardess and at the same time, a freelance designer for logos or website etc, the media side. Then when I settle down for a family, I would continue being a freelance designer but I would quit the airlines and open a pet shop.
Quite interesting eh..
Today's first day of holidays! Went to SPCA and saw all those poor dogs...they really gave those pitiful faces and they cry too! When we walked past, they jumped up and squeezed their noses through those small holes of the cages. If we stopped, they sticked their paws out and we played for a few minutes. I remembered this particular dog, Lucie. Black and very beautiful, very demure. She didn't whine or stick out her tongue . She just sat with her paws hanging out and nose sticking out, allowing us to pat her. She look most pitiful T.T Perhaps when I'm older, and have more money, I'm gonna donate a huge sum to renovate that place and provide better facilities. That place is real sad looking man, dun mention the animals.
Then went on to Richelle's house nearby. Btw, Toby's waist size is the combination of me and Dine's waist!! With its stubby legs and wobbly body and butt. Haha. Moved on to Bugis Street, bought a few items and this new love:
Thanks dearest! =)
Labels: random
Monday, November 05, 2007
My arms hurt sooooo badly. Just pressing against it hurts. Lifting it up hurts. Swinging it back hurts. I gkek my muscles also pain. T.T cries. Must be those pull-ups.
I went shopping for necessities earlier on. Bought ankle guard, hair removal cream (lol), deodorant and food for April. Also had a very filling lunch. Man, I nearly puke out everything. Too full. Sushi at Tampines, they've good desserts and cheap cheap sushi- $0.99 per plate. Now I feel like baking choc cakes. Quite cramp my stomach. Argh!
Some recent pictures before I made for the toilet:
Fresh out from the bathe
All she sees is the bacon in my hand.
Life's long road.
Labels: April Baby, cheer
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Ever since day one, though I have never say it aloud, those broken promises, those false hopes, I had enough.
I dropped hints, I
threw tantrums, but you always seems not to get it, turned around and then it will be my fault. There's no
permanency, just temporary coaxing and actions.
Perhaps you forgot, maybe it slipped your mind..for after all, who's perfect?
But then again, keeping a schedule blank for you to fill, rejecting others, pushing aside all else things, only to be left wandering by myself.
Perhaps I should get my own life. Maybe I should start spending time with myself and other people. I can have a dozen girlfriends and
guy friends to pack my schedule with, to depend on.
Perhaps I should pack up my schedule with all my own stuff, the things I want to do. Me myself and God as the first priority. All else comes second and if I want to.
Why can I be selfish?
And there's so many other things...
spiritually....Labels: disappointed, feeling down
Saturday, November 03, 2007
Admiralty Park
they should add BBQ pits
Dragonflies mating
the turtle lives in this dirty pond
I gt a predicted module grade of D+ for Production. Nightmare came true. Shucks. My 3 UTs must score. No more ponning. Stupid Dixion.
Labels: random
Friday, November 02, 2007
Hoho. I'm too free that I'm back in here. Just came back from the park again, yes. Took lots of pictures, discovered more flowers, bumped into lots of bees (arghhh), and saw bright metallic blue birds and a gigantic turtle.
I came up with a list of 'to-dos' for this coming holiday. Must make full use the one week. It's been like so long since I really spent time out with my beloved ones- not counting like school, trainings and more trainings + church.
The list as it is now:
1) go Geraldine's house and bath (torture/spin) Twister the ham.
2) go SPCA
3) bring Auntie April and Uncle Toby (Richelle's neck-less dog haha) out together.
4) go to Escape/Wild2Wet/Jurong's SwimmingC with Dine's lil brother (according to Joseph). HAHA.
5) go Yum Cha and Sketches.
Labels: holiday, random
I didn't mention in the previous posts. But the very day we wore the new
Rexaz uniform for it's maiden performance, the performance was canceled cause of mother nature. What a waste.
Argh! Those make-up cells I had to attend and cab rides while on a tight budget. But I had gotten over it actually. Just need to put it down in words. Random.
So anyway, I'm in the library again ^_*. with 3
dota-
ing guys. Yes, yes. I need not elaborate further.
Haha.
I have the drawing module test later again and I forgot to bring my pencils and colour pencils etc. My memory is getting worse.
Doh! I need organisers- in human, technology and paper form. And I realised that I had given up on online shopping, or just shopping. The lack of money drives me nuts and now I can't really be bothered.
On a serious note, stop pretending. Almost everyone can see through you, in your heart and mind, how you guys think. Plain selfish people. All your 'i-m-stronger/better-than-you' look and tone. Shut all your big talk when you can't walk it. Shame on you.
Labels: cheer, random
Thursday, November 01, 2007
Haha. I visited Admiralty Park earlier in the morning. Awesome :) Nothing beats strolling around the park freely, such peace..no hurry, no worries, all the aches and pain blown away. And in case you're wondering about that big dog above, it's sort of like a stray I encountered in the park. Actually he's owned as claimed by this bangla construction worker in our school. That boy's (the dog) so sweet I tell you. When his master came up to him and reached out his hand, the doggie licked his hand in such an endearing way.. I nearly melted when I saw that scene. Suddenly I felt like teleporting home to squeeze the hell outta April. Awww. It's so tame...at a word from that guy, he quietly let me pat him for the longest time. *jumps around and squeeze April (imaginary)*
Okay, anyway I gotta really buck up on my studies. Especially after today. I'll surely get an F. I left early, that explains the stroll in the Park. I got so pissed off larh! Production works today. Two humongous heavy case to lug around, lighting equipments and a whole roll of colour sheets for the lights. 2 person, including me in the team. wth!? Two teeny girls lugging the whole load of equipments, setting up and operating them- well, guess who should we film? The air? The chairs and tables?? And that Dixion(what a name), our fac expects us to accomplish it. Well done. Arh, shiimata. Hate him. So I packed my bags and left during 1st breakout.
I promise this will be the last time I skip class (for this module). I can't bear to think if I retain that class, I'll get to see him for another whole sem. Hoho.
Labels: random, rants