I don't know how crazy can I get.
I wonder am I really right in the head.
Stumbling home in the dark,
stomping hard on a foot with purpose,
I don't know is it the joy of pain or the attention I seek.

Shivering under cold water, I stood
for the longest time before I awoke.
I saw Dove for calming nights,
and thought I need a calm night indeed.

But calm night not for me tonight.
Weird thoughts and dreams in my head,
reality and dreams seems to merge.
Wild, harsh sobs that's not from me seemingly.

I thought I was dying, so feverish and cold,
dragging deep painful breaths into constricted lungs.
I stay awake for hours afraid of closing my eyes,
in case my body stops fighting to breathe once I sleep.

I called and called and cried and cried,
desperately needing someone to hear me.
But all I manage was gasps.
How lonely and frightening the night was.

There was no one.
No one.

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