Christmas is coming!

But oh well....some one's leaving for Thailand in like, half an hour time. I feel pretty sad and lonely. Quite a hypocrite eh, me. I take back my words, I'm so dependent on people. Sigh...gonna miss you so so much. =(


Haha.

And miss you.

Labels: April Baby, Christmas, random

I saw a meteorite yesterday walking home.

And I thought how much things you've never known.

But I'm not even gonna say anything anymore.

All the secrets to myself, I shall do it on my own.

I really do hate you; because I loved you first.

Labels: feeling down

Where's the will to defy the 'impossible'?
Where's the joy to soar to greater heights?
Where's the perseverance to keep on trying?
Where's the endurance to overcome the physical?
Where's the mindset of I can do it?
Where's the control of emotions?

So tired.....and I feel so shitty, so lousy

Then now I see the house and I feel like it's a mess.
I feel no belonging there, just no homeliness.
I seem to live in a different world,
so faraway, so different and alone.
I smile widely, laugh and make a clown of myself,
bringing joy to people and yet feeling all the hurt in me.
But I feel so empty and weird inside,
just an outer facade.
Shed it off in my room,
a place that's most familiar...

yet getting less familiar too.

There seems no escape from this deep confusion.
How profuse my feelings are...how lost...
Even I don't understand..

Labels: feeling down

Okay, Richelle..this is one long list. Haha

I fear...

[ ] The dark
[ ] Staying single forever
[ ] Being a parent
[x] Giving birth
[ ] Being myself in front of others
[ ] Open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[x] Heights
[ ] cats
[ ] Dogs
[ ] Birds
[x] Fish
[x] Spiders
[ ] Driving cars
[ ] Being in cars
[ ] Flying
[ ] Flowers or other plants
[ ] Being touched
[x] Fire
[x] Deep water
[ ] The ocean
[ ] Failure
[ ] Success
[x] Thunder/lightning (when it's super LOUD and shocking)
[x] Frogs/toads
[ ] My boyfriend/girlfriend s dad
[ ] My boyfriend/girlfriend s mom
[x] Mice/rats
[ ] Jumping from high places
[ ] Snow
[ ] Rain
[ ] Wind
[x] Crossing hanging bridges
[x] Death
[ ] Heaven
[x] Being robbed
[ ] Cotton balls
[x] Cemeteries
[x] Clowns
[ ] Large crowds
[ ] Men
[ ] Woman
[ ] Having great responsibility
[x] Doctors including dentists
[x] Tornadoes
[x] Hurricanes
[x] Diseases
[x] Snakes
[x] Sharks (if it's not enclosed)
[ ] Friday the thirteenth
[x] Ghosts
[ ] Poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] School
[ ] Trains/or railroads
[ ] Odd numbers
[ ] Even numbers
[ ] Being alone at night
[x] Being blind
[x] Being deaf
[ ] Growing up
[x] Monsters under the bed
[x] Noise in the night (esp. when April is scratching my room door outside and then realising April is inside my room!!!)
[ ] Bee stings
[ ] Not accomplishing my dream/goal
[x] Needle
[x] Blood
[ ] Dinosaurs
[ ] The welcome mat
[ ] Feet
[x] Having your heart broken
[x] Being rejected
[ ] Whales
[ ] Ur mom
[ ] Ur dad
[x] Rapists

Done! Okay, where's my reward too?

Labels: random

Legend has it that in 18th Century Europe, any public display of Christianity was forbidden. No crosses or Bibles were allowed and Christians were greatly oppressed.

One old man, a candy maker by profession, was particularly distressed by this. He loved the Lord with all of his heart and couldn't stand to not share that love with the world. His heart especially went out to the children when Christmas drew near. He prayed to God to show him some way to make Christmas gifts for the children which would teach them the story of Christ.

So came the candy cane.

The candy cane is in the shape of a shepherd's staff to show us Jesus is our Shepherd and we are His flock. A sheep follows his own shepherd, knows his voice and trusts him. It knows that it is totally safe with him. The sheep will follow no other shepherd but their own.

Labels: Christmas, God