My dog is currently being tortured by screaming kids and aplently of food she can't have. It's my brother's 21st birthday. Shared with Iggy and Darren, bought 2 baby goldfish for him. Really cute. They're the only fishes that I proclaimed cute and I ever touched. Sorry for the lack of updates. It's the holidays and it's ending soon. I've been so out and about, returning late and tired so didn't really have the mood to update. August is really a packed month.


Show you guys some pics- of sleeping April and her tongue.


There's more photos of holidays to upload but not now. It really packed in my room.

Labels: April Baby, family times

I will seek the face of the Lord.
No matter the situation, no matter the circumstance.
In Him is the joy, the love and peace and the hope.
Step by step, small initiatives forward,
I see a better future, I'll build a better one.
I can show the world, the glory of God
and that He's who's in me is greater than he's who's in the world.
Hanging on tight, pressing on in,
toughen the armour and steel on ahead.
Face it all with graciousness and respect
and know that God's with you.

-

This song makes me happy =)

And I will fly
high above the clouds
Riding the sky
lifting Your glory
Let all the earth
watch us live in love
Praising Your name
and fly along with You

Labels: God, happy

Dated: 09/08/08. Long overdue.

That's all!

Labels: April Baby, happy

The joy of the Lord...it's so strong the moment I enter. I felt so revitalize, so alive than I had in weeks. Nothing beats your own cellgroup, being near them, worshipping together facing each other, side by side.

So haven't I learned that my ways
Aren't as high as Yours are
And You alone keep the universe
From crumbling into dust
You are God and though we would
Not have understood You

There You were Hanging blameless on a cross
You would rather die than leave us in the dark
Every moment, every planned coincidence
Just all makes sense
With Your last breath

You were there, You were there
During historys darkest hour
You were there, You were there always
You were the Victor and the King
You were the power in David's swing
You were the calm in Abraham
You are the God who understands
You are the strength when we have none
You are the living, Holy one
You were, You are and You will always be the
Risen Lamb of God

Labels: E269, God

I wrote a long letter to Daddy God up there in heaven. I pasted a stamp, sealed it and sent it up to heaven..Today was a terrible day. I just want to run, just want to hide away. Close my eyes and leave. Throughout the day, my eyes swam with tears, each time I remembered. It's all so wrong. I pretend it was nothing, that it's ain't affecting..but I feel so broken and down. I feel so hollow and empty. It felt like everything has changed.
It really pains me to see a love one so filled with anger and hate, words that don't belong coming out. It hurts me to see people fighting, people related by blood, people that know You, people that you've died for. I feel so ashamed and bad, it seems like things trigger off with me around. I shouldn't be there. If I hadn't insisted on coming..but my love one was sick. I sorry Lord for being selfish, that I've insisted, I hadn't know the situation. I was terrible, unworthy to live up as Your child, but I'll try.
God, I pray You will heal broken relationships and soften angry hearts. You have died on the cross for us, Jesus, and taken away our sins. Please Daddy God, remind us that we are no greater than others, to judge others, to be unforgiving. I pray that all those who have hurt me, treated me wrong, that You will bless them. I release them into your hands. And likewise, I pray you will help others do the same, heal their broken hearts and spirit. Help us remember and see the good things people have done, not the weaknesses. I pray let not this bring us down, but make us stronger, for You make us, break us and mould us to better people always than before. I pray that tender voices will be heard again. Jesus I love You. Amen.

Labels: feeling down, God

I don't know. I really don't know. I thought it was this, and then I thought it was that. And then I don't know what's what anymore. I was thinking and am still thinking, still wondering, still asking. I felt one thing and then I wonder is it selfish of me, is it wrong of me? Is it the wrong attitude, am I'm being a quitter? Am I'm giving up on the race? Or is it just a change, a place where I can put to use what I'm learning, where I am now? I know what I want. But is it the wrong thing. Is it what God wants? Is it what others felt and agree? Maybe I shouldn't think too much about others. Maybe I'm putting too much into their shoes. Maybe I'm imagining too much, thinking too much. I'm in such a dilemma. I want to hear confirmation but I'm afraid that people won't hear of it. Is it wrong to be afraid? Much as I try, I really do not have the confidence. And I wonder is it wrong? Is it an excuse for me? Am I really shortchanging the people? NOW, WHEN WILL I STOP WONDERING AND THINKING?? I'm being double-minded, am I? Okay, again. I feel so stupid and irritating!

Labels: feeling down, rants

And to my 6 other girls, thank you all for caring for me so much so that all of you got big BIG BA LU KUs and I only have just 2 small tiny painless one. Xin ku da jia! *bows*

and my dearest Iggy..... ^^

Labels: April Baby, cheer

Two little boys, ages 8 and 10, are excessively mischievous. They are always getting into trouble and their parents know all about it. If any mischief occurs in their town, the two boys are probably involved. The boys’ mother heard that a preacher in town had been successful in disciplining children, so she asked if he would speak with her boys. The preacher agreed, but he asked to see them individually. So the mother sent the 8 year old first, in the morning, with the older boy to see the preacher in the afternoon.

The preacher, a huge man with a booming voice, sat the younger boy down and asked him sternly, "Do you know where God is, son?” The boy’s mouth dropped open, but he made no response, sitting there wide-eyed with his mouth hanging open. So the preacher repeated the question in an even sterner tone, "Where is God?!”

Again, the boy made no attempt to answer. The preacher raised his voice even more and shook his finger in the boy’s face and bellowed, “Where is God?!”

The boy screamed and bolted from the room, ran directly home and dove into his closet, slamming the door behind him. When his older brother found him in the closet, he asked, "what happened?” The younger brother, gasping for breath, replied, “We are in BIG trouble this time. GOD is missing, and they think we did it!"

Labels: God, random

It's like have been so long, so long..
in a world where I'm all alone.
Feeling so lost and disconnected..
I didn't know what to do.
I feel like I don't deserve it..
just do not have that ability.
I moving further and further away..
can't feel, can't concentrate but I still love..
I long for that touch.
-

Plugging in..FOP, I really love this song, by Parachute Band:

Living rain fall again
Over my life, over my land
Living rain wash my heart again
Open wide heaven skies, over my street
O Spirit reside
Living Rain flood my life again

Come Back,
Back to Your First Love
Back to Your first Love
At the Foot of the Cross
-

I love God. He is my first love, all that I am now. Thank You Abba Father for bringing me through nearly 19 years of my life, growing me up and giving wonderful gifts of love and joy.

Okay, some peektures of Iggy's weird antics.

Labels: God, love-d, memories