I wrote a long letter to Daddy God up there in heaven. I pasted a stamp, sealed it and sent it up to heaven..Today was a terrible day. I just want to run, just want to hide away. Close my eyes and leave. Throughout the day, my eyes swam with tears, each time I remembered. It's all so wrong. I pretend it was nothing, that it's ain't affecting..but I feel so broken and down. I feel so hollow and empty. It felt like everything has changed.
It really pains me to see a love one so filled with anger and hate, words that don't belong coming out. It hurts me to see people fighting, people related by blood, people that know You, people that you've died for. I feel so ashamed and bad, it seems like things trigger off with me around. I shouldn't be there. If I hadn't insisted on coming..but my love one was sick. I sorry Lord for being selfish, that I've insisted, I hadn't know the situation. I was terrible, unworthy to live up as Your child, but I'll try.
God, I pray You will heal broken relationships and soften angry hearts. You have died on the cross for us, Jesus, and taken away our sins. Please Daddy God, remind us that we are no greater than others, to judge others, to be unforgiving. I pray that all those who have hurt me, treated me wrong, that You will bless them. I release them into your hands. And likewise, I pray you will help others do the same, heal their broken hearts and spirit. Help us remember and see the good things people have done, not the weaknesses. I pray let not this bring us down, but make us stronger, for You make us, break us and mould us to better people always than before. I pray that tender voices will be heard again. Jesus I love You. Amen.
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