It's such a beautiful memory. The moment of victory... the tense moments before it, holding hands and praying deeply, just repeating God God God in my head and the outburst of tears and hugs and screaming.
How I wish it wasn't my last year with you guys. This nationals had given me so much memories to keep.
Those trying times, when pain and injuries set in, when stunts fell and tears flow, when coach was upset.
Those times of laughter and fun, ghost stories and dog stories, learning how to be sexy and bitchy, those campus runs or traffic junction route, those OUT and REFLECT together. How can I ever describe finish?
Rexaz made my day, all you beautiful people with your different and distinct personality that makes me smile and laugh out loud.
To my dearest Iggy, for keeping on believing in me, wiping away my tears, confessing in me, telling me I can I can I can do it and making me say it out.
To my beloved e269- Jimmy for being so supportive and patient during the months of trainings. Your understanding allows me to focus during those times and thanks for sponsoring the flowers. I feel so extra special that day. And Ying Fang, Jun Hui and Louisa for coming down that day I was so so surprised and touched. *hugs*
And Mummy, Daddy for coming down! I was even more more pleased. Your presence means so much to me. It truly the most wonderful day of my life. I always wanted you all to see me in my uniform and performing. I love You Mum, Dad =) Oh and all those pictures you snapped!
Not forgetting Karen and Maxtreme! All of your laughter are so infectious. You guys taught us alot and is always helping, supporting us. The winning spirit you gave us. Screaming your lungs out during our performance. Karen I know you're behind jumping up and down screaming! Thank you for always believing in me. You made me cry so much everytime you talk to me. Congrats on getting the champs for girls group!
And lastly to my Coach Audrey, Rexaz wouldn't be where we are today without you. I wouldn't be who I am without you. Thank you for giving the 2 years plus of your life to us. The commitment that you've shown us, advices you have given the committee, to help Rexaz leave a legacy and a long way into history. Rexaz is as much yours as ours.
Thank you for giving me so many many opportunities though many times I'm not deserving of it, though many times I cannot execute what you want, though many times, after countless reminders I still forget to point toes, to go up fast, to stick it, to lock more etc etc. But no matter what, in my mind I always wanted to make you happy and I wanted to do it for you. Whatever you said to me, those encouragements I really treasure it. No words can describe how much you mean to me and I'm sure does the rest of Rexaz. I really really love you. Oh and the memorable, JOANNA! GO OUT AND REFLECT! LOOK AT THE SKY UNTIL YOU REMEMBER!
Rexaz! There's more to come! You guys gonna be even better the year after and after and after!
Cheerobics 2009 =)
Labels: love-d, REXAZ
Looking through my archives now.
Last year, this month, on the 8
th,
I mentioned I bought the book Marley and me.
The movie's showing now.
How time flies....
I thought it was only a few months ago,
to think a full year has past.
And I mentioned how we wanted to do it for coach,
to make her happy...
On March 17
th,
I wrote that it's just as well that I took no pictures.
Nothing great I did, nothing I am proud of.
I remember, I remember so clearly....
The moment, I landed and turn round,
I saw your eyes behind, and it's your eyes that haunt me.
I feel like I disappointed everybody and you.
I never felt this lousy in my life.
I felt like I've failed.
Like I've spoilt the whole thing.
I think I put
alot of blame on myself for not performing.
Few days later,
I was still waking up with a heavy heart,
feeling sore and lousy.
Ambled about my house the whole day sighing and hating myself.
At that point, thought the whole world hates me too.
I remembered seeking out
Pasir Ris Beach with April.
Inside me, I said I can never look myself the same way again.
I want to give up the whole thing, for I thought it's not my thing.
One full year later, I'm still in it.
I don't really know what makes me stay.
Over many occasions, I wanted to leave
for other commitments, under pressure inside or out.
To say I'm passionate about it is not right,
to say I really enjoy being in the company is not really right too.
I just remembered one thing, 'to return stronger than before.'
To finish what I begun 3 years ago.
It's the last of what defines 3 years of my life.
Where everything that happened, revolved around
Rexaz.
You guys, are deeply attached in my heart, like nothing else.
That's why I stayed. To leave, is like taking a part of my life away.
I want to do it one last time with everybody. And I know this year, we WILL MAKE IT!
Labels: cheer, deep thoughts, REXAZ
How I wish it wasn't my last year with you guys. This nationals had given me so much memories to keep.
To my dearest Iggy, for keeping on believing in me, wiping away my tears, confessing in me, telling me I can I can I can do it and making me say it out.
To my beloved e269- Jimmy for being so supportive and patient during the months of trainings. Your understanding allows me to focus during those times and thanks for sponsoring the flowers. I feel so extra special that day. And Ying Fang, Jun Hui and Louisa for coming down that day I was so so surprised and touched. *hugs*
And Mummy, Daddy for coming down! I was even more more pleased. Your presence means so much to me. It truly the most wonderful day of my life. I always wanted you all to see me in my uniform and performing. I love You Mum, Dad =) Oh and all those pictures you snapped!
Not forgetting Karen and Maxtreme! All of your laughter are so infectious. You guys taught us alot and is always helping, supporting us. The winning spirit you gave us. Screaming your lungs out during our performance. Karen I know you're behind jumping up and down screaming! Thank you for always believing in me. You made me cry so much everytime you talk to me. Congrats on getting the champs for girls group!
And lastly to my Coach Audrey, Rexaz wouldn't be where we are today without you. I wouldn't be who I am without you. Thank you for giving the 2 years plus of your life to us. The commitment that you've shown us, advices you have given the committee, to help Rexaz leave a legacy and a long way into history. Rexaz is as much yours as ours.
Cheerobics 2009 =)